Feeling exactly the same way. And TBH this comes from a feeling that we never respected our profession and our fellow engineers. I mean I know no other engineering discipline where best practices and tools were changing every 3 years. I also know no other engineering discipline where getting older is anathema instead of a badge of expertise. We behave like we were in fashion business rather than engineering.

So. Yes. On one hand I'm shiting my pants because that's the only way I know of making some money. On the other hand I'm saying to myself, to hell with it all.

PS: There should be a sister thread to this with alternative careers for former SW engs.